I know this should be one of the happiest times of my life.
But it's not.
I know I probably shouldn't post that here.
But I figure most of you know I'm not the happiest or most positive person in the world (nor do I even come close).
My life has gotten ridiculously complicated in the past year, not just due to being PG. Many other reasons...
At times I just get really frustrated w/the complicated 'stuff' and huge feelings of regret overcome me. One of those times is NOW. This is not the life I have been working so hard to create for myself over all these years.
It also makes me feel better to post my 'bitchfest' here.
I also have a private Typepad account where I post more detailed rants (to help me maintain some level of sanity).
I'm stuck in one of my "wish I had/hadn't made that decision(s)" modes right now.
Life just really sucks sometimes...and one of those times for me is NOW.
7 comments:
(((HUGS)))
It's better to get it out than to hold it in & let it fester. That much I know. And I am glad you feel "safe enough" to vent here to us.
more (((HUGS)))
let it ALL hang out. Feels better doing that, doesn't it?
Sorry Krystyn! I think the fact that you can even admit out loud you're somewhat miserable and having "should I/shouldn't I have" thoughts during what is SUPPOSED to be the happiest time of your life is brave, and probably a good sign that no matter how bad things get for you, they won't 100% consume you.
Just make the decision that's right for you, whatever it is.
Ok, time for a {{GROUP HUG}}. I'm so sorry you don't feel happy now. One of my favorite exchanges about getting stuff out came from an obscure tv show:
"What do we do with our bad feelings?"
"Ignore them and shove them deep inside so they can't come out?"
"No, because they come back all angry and *pissed off*."
We're here to listen, so don't you worry about that. I just wish I could say something else to help.
Thanks all - I appreciate the HUGS!!
Can I join in on the hug!? Hope you have the easiest delivery ever!! Does O have all the vital numbers to let folks know when Ethan's here???
This is your blog and you can vent whenever you want. I know from reading that this year has been tough for you, and I wish you nothing but the best once little Ethan makes his way into the world! Now if he would just get moving... ;)
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