Thursday, August 19, 2010

Stressed

As happy as I should be to have a new job etc, yesterday turned out to be the most stressful day of my life in a very long time.

In addition to work stuff, I got the email announcing when my comprehensive exams would be, Oct 1st. I've been stressed about this exam for 2 years now.

I also have another test on Sep 18, fairly big, but rumor is that it's easier than Comps.

Then today, for a change, I cried at daycare dropoff...and Ethan was off playing with cars.

I have my first internship class tonight and will have to leave early to go back to work for a parent meet & greet session...so it's going to be a long day.

ETA: And then tonite my *(&^&% husband says "so EVERY Thursday you are going to be home late?"  WTF? Are you kidding me? I told him this 2 weeks ago and WHY WHY WHY is ONE flippin night to care for E SO FREAKIN' MUCH for him to do? The next bitch session he goes into, I am going apeshit on him and will not-so-kindly remind him that I am HAVING to finish this degree AND work FT because HE is too mother flippin' lazy to go out and find a BETTER job...instead he bitches about never having money and then has the nerve to tell me that I don't care if E is at daycare from 7am-6pm...which complete BS...he is picked up at 4pm every day and during the Summer when I was not working, I often picked him up at 3pm, right after nap. For the record: O has NEVER EVER EVER had to drop E off at daycare, which we all know is FAR FAR worse than picking him up. My husband is a big effin a-hole....almost ALL of the time. And I lacked to mention how he always says he wants me to stay home with E...ha...I would like that too so get off your flipping lazy ass and find a new job.

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5 comments:

Travel & Dive Girl said...

Don't be so tough on yourself - you are going through a lot right now and it's bound to be overwhelming. Take one step at a time and you'll be fine. *smiles*

Beatriz said...

Hey no worries, you seem to be on top of things and pretty organized. (Says the woman who forgets everything)

I'm sure you'll do great!

Two Flights Down said...

I'm also stressed over starting a new job. There's so much paperwork and so much time I need to just do prep work. I know it'll get better, but boy it can be a heavy weight.

I can't imagine having to do classes right now and prepare for tests, plus being a mother. I don't know how you do it, but I always find inspiration in people who know how to get things done. You're going to get through this stressful part and things are going to get better.

You should be proud of what you've accomplished and proud of your determination.

~**Dawn**~ said...

We *all* have Those Days, girlie. Tomorrow is always a fresh start. Pretty soon this won't be new anymore. It will just be the new normal.

Anonymous said...

I hate your husband.