Wednesday, November 26, 2008

~dark & twisty~

I haven't been blogging lately because I really don't have anything good to say. I figure those who read this MUST be sick of my complaining and negativity by now.

I've been having a (very) rough last 10 days or so, lots of stress coupled with lots of crying.

I often wonder how bad things have to get before they'll get better.

My aunt & cousin came in from TX for Thanksgiving. This is the 1st time we are seeing each other since the big falling out last July. Things seem to be fine and I am glad about that. I was stressin' about it.

Still no progress on my lawsuit. In fact, he was supposed to call me last week but blew me off instead. I called his office this Monday and basically let his secretary know that I'm getting very stressed out and quite unhappy and why has he told me 3x that he's filing my case (that day) when it really hasn't been filed @ all. She called me back later Monday and said he wants me to come into the office for a meeting....WTH? Can't this be done over the phone? She said that she is 99.9% positive it is good can there be any good news when nothing has been done. I'm sure he's not going to hand over a check for my lost wages, embarassment, humiliation, lost benefits, etc. Needless to say, I'm losing a bit of sleep over this meeting. It is scheduled for Tuesday 12/2 @ 10:30am. He better not tell me he's dropping my case, or I may have to drop kick him.

OK - I'm really, really, really, really depressed about the holidays. I could care less about them and I hate that I feel that way when it will be Ethan's first Christmas. I'm also quite upset about the fact that I cannot go out and ENJOY doing Christmas shopping. It feels like a burden really.

It drives me nuts that O counts his chickens before they hatch. Absolutely NUTS! He is counting on a healthy Christmas bonus from his company this year. Last year he rec'd $500. He is thinking it will be WAY more than that. I am getting tired of reminding him that everytime he has thought this company would reward him financially, they have let him down, i.e. a whopping .50 (annual) raise!! So we'll see what happens, but I'm not counting the chickens right now....I'll wait 'til they hatch.

Speaking of O's company...we have the company Christmas dinner on Friday 12/5. It was totally lame last year...only iced tea and water served with dinner! Blech. Geez, give me a diet soda at least would ya'?!?! Anyway, we don't have to pay anything for the dinner, but the employees have to give $26 to contribute for a gift for the owner, who by the way, just happens to be a MILLIONAIRE...WTH? So basically, it's a $13/plate Christmas dinner. You can probably guess that I really don't want to go.

And to cap off my oh-so-wonderful life...I worked a whopping 4 hrs on Monday. That will get me a whole $36. Whoa. I used to make that in 1 hour! Now, wouldn't YOU be depressed too?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!


Anonymous said...

I for one would LOVE a holiday party where they only served iced tea and water. No annoying questions about why aren't I drinking, and how can I hate wine, and blah blah. As though my not drinking is a silent indictment of those who do. Whatever.

As for the attorney, are you POSITIVE he hasn't filed yet? Can you check online and see? He could be calling to drop the case, but actually, that'd be pretty ballsy of him. If he were going to do that, then he'd most likely do it on the phone.

It's funny how you and O are opposites. David and I are the same in a lot of respects, and sometimes I feel it's not so good, just because we reinforce each other's bad habits. Hopefully things will start to look up!

freebird said...

Yeah, I'd be depressed too. Holidays aren't fun when you're broke. I reluctantly agreed to Secret Santa at work. Our biggie give is only $15, but that's what I would have spent on someone else that I REALLY would have liked to have gotten a gift for! Sorry things are shitty right now. hope things get better.

BTW, Hope you have a nice thanksgiving.

freebird said...

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Stacy said...

Oh sweetie..I'm sorry things are so bad for you right now. I ahven't blogged much either....this going back to school thing is killing me.
I see you meeting was this moring....I am praying it went well! :)