I haven't been blogging lately because I really don't have anything good to say. I figure those who read this MUST be sick of my complaining and negativity by now.
I've been having a (very) rough last 10 days or so, lots of stress coupled with lots of crying.
I often wonder how bad things have to get before they'll get better.
My aunt & cousin came in from TX for Thanksgiving. This is the 1st time we are seeing each other since the big falling out last July. Things seem to be fine and I am glad about that. I was stressin' about it.
Still no progress on my lawsuit. In fact, he was supposed to call me last week but blew me off instead. I called his office this Monday and basically let his secretary know that I'm getting very stressed out and quite unhappy and why has he told me 3x that he's filing my case (that day) when it really hasn't been filed @ all. She called me back later Monday and said he wants me to come into the office for a meeting....WTH? Can't this be done over the phone? She said that she is 99.9% positive it is good news....how can there be any good news when nothing has been done. I'm sure he's not going to hand over a check for my lost wages, embarassment, humiliation, lost benefits, etc. Needless to say, I'm losing a bit of sleep over this meeting. It is scheduled for Tuesday 12/2 @ 10:30am. He better not tell me he's dropping my case, or I may have to drop kick him.
OK - I'm really, really, really, really depressed about the holidays. I could care less about them and I hate that I feel that way when it will be Ethan's first Christmas. I'm also quite upset about the fact that I cannot go out and ENJOY doing Christmas shopping. It feels like a burden really.
It drives me nuts that O counts his chickens before they hatch. Absolutely NUTS! He is counting on a healthy Christmas bonus from his company this year. Last year he rec'd $500. He is thinking it will be WAY more than that. I am getting tired of reminding him that everytime he has thought this company would reward him financially, they have let him down, i.e. a whopping .50 (annual) raise!! So we'll see what happens, but I'm not counting the chickens right now....I'll wait 'til they hatch.
Speaking of O's company...we have the company Christmas dinner on Friday 12/5. It was totally lame last year...only iced tea and water served with dinner! Blech. Geez, give me a diet soda at least would ya'?!?! Anyway, we don't have to pay anything for the dinner, but the employees have to give $26 to contribute for a gift for the owner, who by the way, just happens to be a MILLIONAIRE...WTH? So basically, it's a $13/plate Christmas dinner. You can probably guess that I really don't want to go.
And to cap off my oh-so-wonderful life...I worked a whopping 4 hrs on Monday. That will get me a whole $36. Whoa. I used to make that in 1 hour! Now, wouldn't YOU be depressed too?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!