Tuesday, September 16, 2014

On My Mind

1) I have not been able to stop thinking about living abroad...it's not actually something that's "in the cards" or even available at this time, but I can't stop thinking about how much I would LOVE it. I've always been a travel nut and while we do go on a few trips every year, it's usually to the same places or places nearby. I'm itching to get out of this country and see someplace new. Back to the "living" there part though...I dream of living in Germany and have dreamt it for quite a while. I should have married a military man. Damn!

2) Since the amazing Medal of Honor recipients visited our school last week, I've been completely obsessed with most things military...one of the MoH recipients I met, Bruce Crandall, is portrayed in the movie "We Were Soldiers" and of course I had to watch it last weekend. Now I know why I don't watch "that kind" of movie...I can barely handle it and having met him (and others) in real life, only made the movie MORE real for me and therefore more painful. So now I feel like my job is so minuscule compared to what these amazing men did and those regrets of having not joined the Coast Guard have returned to haunt me. Now I'm just too damn old.

3) In general, a lot of regret. I know that's a waste of time but I'm stuck there right now. I had 3 people last week essentially tell me that my job/work is "inconsequential/unimportant", of course not in THOSE words, but might as well have been....so now here I sit, just about hating my job and wishing I had studied something else. Crap!

OK - time to turn off the brain. Goodnight.


~**Dawn**~ said...

"We Were Soldiers" was the last movie I went to with my dad before I moved to Florida. My dad served in Vietnam (Army Infantry in combat) and almost never talks about his time there, other than a handful of short quips. I remember when he read the book "We Were Soldiers Once and Young" (the book the movie was inspired by) and it took him years. He could only read a little at a time before it would start bothering him and he'd have to put it away again for a while. I was really honored that he was willing to let me go with him to watch that movie.

Beatriz said...

Cool, you met MoH recipients, that must have been such a treat for your students. As for the naysayers, ignore them, they just want to feel more important about their jobs. That and they probably feel that your job is "easier" because you aren't in a classroom like they are but not true. The grass is always greener on the other side, right? They just think you're grass is greener. Little do they know....

*krystyn* said...

Dawn-I can totally understand why your dad wouldn't be able to talk about Vietnam. I could hardly watch some of the scenes in the movie...I can only imagine what it would have been like in real life.

Beatriz-It was very cool to meet the MoH recipients. We had a Blackhawk helicopter land on our soccer field too. The students loved it. I'm trying to ignore...but we all know that sometimes that is really hard to do. Thank you!