These next couple weeks will hold a higher stress level for me.
I'm not excited about that at all.
While I faced Monday (yesterday) with a positive attitude, it quickly crumbled as (1) people threw me under the bus (undeservedly, if I may add) and (2) because I was frustrated with a variety of things, another co-worker yelled at me in front of 4 others. It is 18 hours later and I'm still stewing and wish I was a quick thinker and had fired back my own thoughts.
Maybe it's a good thing I didn't fire back much, but it still makes me mad.
I've been contemplating change in my life for a while anyway.
It seems like yesterday was a message of "Yes, it is time for a change."
Now to put that change into action....that's the hard part....not for lack of want though.
Today I feel on the verge of tears. And that makes me mad because these people are not worth my tears.
I'm tired of feeling like no one is "on my side"...even if they claim they are, I don't feel it.
I am so angry too. I don't want to talk to anyone but of course, today that is inevitable.