~Today was my first day back @ work...ugh. It was not stressful but I just don't want to be there. I want to be home w/Ethan.
I have a dilemma and want to post the options/scenarios here for your input...they are all job-related.
Job Option 1
Continue to work current position which is contract, no benefits, no paid time off but pays a healthy wage. This job is during the day 7am-3:30pm and would require daycare for Ethan. The contract supposed to be for 6 months (June) at which time I would only continue if they made the position full time with benefits...but ultimately I just don't want to work during the day. In my opinion, 4-5 hours with Ethan per day is NOT enough and that's all I get by working during the day.
Job Option 2
Leave contract job and work FT at Starbucks for a measly wage. This job comes with full health benefits for Ethan and I (cost $140/month). In addition, I would earn approx $40-50 in tips/week. I would work ONLY evenings, for example from 5:30-close and between 35-40 hrs/wk. I would NOT need daycare for Ethan and would be able to be home with him all day.
Ultimately I need to run numbers and really see if this is even feasable (sp?). I don't have much debt, it would just be a matter of making the regular bills.
My mom is not keen on me leaving a good paying FT job for SBUX, but she does not feel the distress that I do over taking E to daycare. It bothers me that I don't have her support.
Also, while working @ SBUX (if that's the option I choose), I would continue to pursue the hospital job. I discovered today that I am not a 'qualifying candidate' because they REQUIRE a particular certification for the job. I have already begun to study for this on my own and I will need to take the exam - hopefully I can do that soon and become eligible for hire. There job postings did not clearly specify the certification is a Requirement and I wish I knew this 1 month ago as I could have begun studying long ago.
It seems that this should be an easy decision and I guess if I take out the emotional piece, it is an easy decision. I told O today, I just want to be happy and by taking Ethan to daycare, rushing to work, back to pick up E and having so few hours w/him...I am not happy.
The job change situation is a temporary thing...I just want to be around for as much of the 1st year of his life as I can - more would be better - but he'll only be this little for a short time. Daycare is a different story when kids are mobile and able to play and interact with others -then I think there are some positive aspects of daycare....just not so much as an infant.
What would YOU do?