Wednesday, September 02, 2009
weekend plans & more
~i feel somewhat guilty about this vent, but it must be said and hopefully i'll feel better afterwards. my mom is on a perpetual diet & has seemed to be much more committed to it since marrying current husband (another story, another day). she works out with a trainer 2x per week and additionally at home. they've also recently started some carb elimination thing and she has mentioned that the lbs have been coming off of both of them since. she also goes to WW and often reports her results to me. the other day she mentioned that she has some pants that are just WAY TOO BIG for her and that she'll pass them to me (oh yay) to wear until I get back down to my pre-baby shape & weight (which at this point I think may never happen). I'm sorry but it is very hard for me to celebrate her accomplishment WITH her (or even fake joyfullness) when I'm struggling SOOOO much to lose even one effin pound - and she KNOWS how frustrated I am. I guess it's just me and I'd be a bit more sensitive in discussing this topic with me, if I were her. And when I share my frustration with not having lost ONE SINGLE POUND since beginning my running (3 months ago) & quitting nursing (2 months ago) she usually responds with "keep at it, it will happen"....not really the most motivational statement ever made. I love her dearly and we are VERY close, but this is a sore spot for me right now and I wish she would recognize that. I really don't want to tell her not to share her weight loss progress with me because that would just be mean.
~because I like to burn the candle at both ends, I am participating in Shimelle's Learn Something New Everyday Class for the month of September. Yesterday was (obviously) the first day...I am making a small 6x6 album and the idea is to do a small layout everyday about what you've learned that day. The challenge for me is that there are many things I may learn/observe that I don't necessarily want to document or well, aren't meant for eyes other than my own...so I'll have to put a little bit of additional creativity into it. Here is my layout from yesterday 9.1.09...oh and after I scanned it, I stamped the date on it, so you don't see that here...
I'm trying to stick to a green/blue/kraft(brown) color scheme, so we'll see how that goes throughout. I'm also using ONLY product that I already have. There will be no buying of new product...it's NOT in the budget. I'll have to scan & post the cover to the album tonight or tomorrow...it's similar to Shimelle's but still different.
~I'm also trying to step outside of my scrapbooking "box" as I feel a bit behind the times...and well, I would really like to work on being published again...it happened a few times long, long ago and I imagine it is likely more difficult now due to there being less publications out there, but it sure would be nice. I probably don't have a snowball's chance in hell at it, especially since I don't typically run out and buy the newest products/papers, but i suppose it's worth a try anyway. *sigh*
~then again, maybe I won't really try. it seems like too much effort & if I were really good at it, well, it would come easily...instead putting pages together is ridiculously time consuming and occasionally even painful.
~i know i said i wouldn't mention it again, but i do tend to ruminate on certain things and I'm really bummed about my "forever lost" blogs again....they would be so FUN to read right now.
~a friend at work loaned me her Garmin 305 GPS watch to try out..it's the same one from my I Want Wednesday post a few weeks ago...so I'm excited to see all the fun stuff it can do! Too bad it can't actually DO the run for me too. :)