Monday, October 19, 2009
~two of my friends ran Marathons yesterday...one in MI and the other in CA. For both it was their 2nd marathon. both improved their time by 7 minutes. neither have been lifelong die-hard runners...which contributes to my grand feelings of failure-ism.
~so far Sep & Oct have been lackluster running months for me...for multiple reasons...such as (1) i'm bored with it, (2) i no longer get that "rush" that everyone talks about (3) multiple aches & pains while running, (4) feelings of no progress (5) lack of time....to just name a few.
~I have a 5K race on Saturday - the Komen. Should be interesting to see how I do considering my extremely low mileage over the past 60 days. i wish i could say i didn't care...but i DO care. i want to do well.
~I was hoping to run this morning while E naps, but not sure how that will work out as I had a "procedure" done on Friday @ the doctor and the jarring motion of running isn't going to feel so well. I may just have to walk.
~I so badly want to "be" a runner, but am feeling rather defeated in that area at this point. i won't give up though. i will still attempt to run the WDW 1/2 in March, but I sure wish I was making progress in my training so I could feel a bit better about it all. and speaking of training, the other challenge is that I just don't have time right now to go out and run 7-8-9 miles every couple days either...so i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place i suppose.
~and these feelings just contribute to the ever-increasing mountain of negative feelings I have about myself in that I have nothing to feel that good about right now (besides E, people!!!) ...or say, nothing going for me...i'm not good @ anything nor is there anything unique about me or my life. i'm just plain and well, that bores me.