MckMama's blog and since she put it so perfectly well and I can entirely relate and instead of typing up my own post, I will just copy her post here (taking out what doesn't apply to me) giving her FULL credit...it's just that it is SO spot on for me right now...this week gets accolades for "crap week of the year" (so far)I found this on
Can I be really honest with you? I'm overwhelmed. I'm frustrated. I'm sad. I might even be depressed. Every emotion possible for a human being to have, I feel like I have had in the past week. Well, at least all of the bad ones. So many people want things from me, want me to do things, be someone, say something, feel a certain way, act on an issue, explain this, do this, do that, change this, admit that. It's overwhelming and it's more than I can handle. I love to be strong. Put on my brave face. But today I don't feel brave or strong. I feel overwhelmed.
I just want to be myself. But I don't want to be myself. I'm sick of myself. But I'm sick of not being able to just be myself. I'm totally overwhelmed and I have no idea what I'm even talking about.
People want me to be someone I'm not. I want to be someone I'm not. I am trying to be so many things to so many people that I'm losing myself.
And that, folks, is just the way it is right now.