Tuesday, March 24, 2009
~hindsight is 20/20~
I'm stuck on this lately for a couple reasons:
(1) I am NOT enjoying my classes AT ALL, not because of the workload or assignments, but more because I keep second guessing this career path and ultimately I am really not interested or motivated. I even have (passing) thoughts of quitting, but then I know I would regret it later on, plus I need the itty bit of income from my GA position, so in the end...I am stuck and it doesn't feel good!
(2) being away from E for 13 hours, two days in a row is really wearing on me. I miss him. :(
(3) I just wish I had a regular M-F 8-5 job drawing a decent paycheck so I had evenings free to go for walks with E, a steady income to save for a vacation(s), and could look forward to a little shopping on the weekends from time to time. I have NONE of this right now and it makes me nearly hate life.
I'm SO happy there are only 4 wks left in the semester (after this week)...oh AND I'm skipping next Tuesday night's Death & Dying class to take my mom out to dinner for her birthday. Hooray!
~I'm so glad that I'll be free from school during May. I am looking forward to enjoying that time off before Summer term starts in June. Free time is so much richer & enjoyable to me now that it's so limited.
~On a more positive note, for THIS reason, it's probably a good thing I don't live @ the AZ/Mexico border any longer. And probably even more important that I'm not crossing that border to go to work everyday like I did for 2 years. So even though I thought my life was falling apart all around me when I got laid off from that job (way back in 2003), I can see now that it was a blessing in disguise.
~Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer, I know I've been whining about this school crap for a while. I'll try to get thru the rest of the semester w/o complaining...a lofty goal.