Saturday, March 28, 2009

~random dreams~

~For some very ODD reason, I had a dream about my very first boyfriend last night. We dated 22 years ago, so I'm not sure why this dream popped up. Before your thoughts start down one path, let me preface by saying that it was a very CLEAN dream.

~I woke up feeling really good though, like I had really met with him, in real life. Our relationship was interesting, to say the least. It started when I was 15, he was 19. I still can't believe my mom agreed to let me 'date' him. He worked @ the pizza place next door to the dog grooming shop where I washed dogs on Saturdays (by the way, I LOVED that job).

~I often think about him, it seems he crosses my mind once a week or so.

~Over time and distance, we just lost touch. He joined the Marines, wrote me letters from wherever he was stationed and even called me from Okinawa (total shock). When he came home on leave he came to visit me @ the photo shop where I was working @ the time (now 21 years old). That was the last time I saw him. There really wasn't any closure either, he said he was going up north to visit his parents and would stop back by on his way 'out' - that never happened.

~I believe that he is now working in Thousand Pines (?), CA as a Deputy Sheriff, although I could be wrong. I wish I could find him on Facebook but I think his profession keeps him from signing up there.

~ETA: The city is actually 29 Palms....all those tree names just confuse me.

~Anyway, the dream was a reunion of sorts, at least that is how it felt when I woke up.

~I wonder how he's doing. Of course I'll be thinking about him all day now. Ugh!!

22 comments:

DaNiL said...

hi.....dont worry...ull get to meet him sooner or later..its just a matter of time.

Fidgeting Gidget said...

I have dreams about my ex-boyfriend all the time! We were together from when we were 16 to when we were 20, and then he just out of the blue one day told me he could never see us getting married and broke up with me. I never saw it coming. We tried to get back together once (for a weekend, then he decided he couldn't handle it, so he dumped me again), and I saw him one time after that. I'm married and happy now, and that was almost 6 years ago, but I think the fact that I never got a real reason or any closure to the whole thing is why I still dream about him--they're always clean, normally just about us hanging out, watching sports together or talking. He's getting married next month, and I still hear about how his life is going through friends, but I agree that it's REALLY annoying when I dream about him, because then I think about him all day, too! We will meet again someday, I know, because I married his sister-in-law's brother and we share nieces and nephews. That's gonna be awkward..... Anyway, thanks for stirring up memories. I enjoy your blog a lot!

Pickle said...

That happens to me from too...annoying isn't it?! Ah well.

Belladonna said...

I think that's so sweet...it's the romantic in me...I can't help it...Every now and then I have a dream about an old boyfriend...but a lot of mine are about us running into each other or something crazy that never happened...and I usually end up running into them or at least hearing from them...so maybe you'll get lucky and get some "out of the blue mail or a phone call"...and I hate to say it 2, but either way...you will be stuck thinking about him for a few days...(o:

-B
http://sparklecity2.blogspot.com/

Embla said...

Hi
You have a nice blog,I like it.Don`t worry complaining about school,it`s honest and real,and everyone can recognise the situation - we all feel like complaining,once in a while :)maybe one day you`ll meet up with this boyfriend?! Anyway,just wanted to tell you-I enjoy your writing.
Embla

KekeLynn said...

I think we all have one we never quite get out of our heads.

E.S. Wynn said...

It's weird, I've been told that we never really love quite as hard as we do the first time. We never really forget that first one, and they seem to show up now and again in our thoughts for decades afterwords. Heck, my first girlfriend shows up in clean dreams here and there too. Totally random, but there it is, nevertheless.

BR..K. .LL.N said...

Probably Thousand Oaks, CA

mr samuri gecko said...

don't worry it's always the closure that gets everyone hell i don't think anything i have is closed except some books(and that doesn't really count to me anyways) oh well i guess we all just learn to live with it

Jen said...

LOL - maybe you are going to meet up soon!

:D

I so wanted to tell the world your blog is fab, but you already got the best award ever - Blog of Note!
:)

msprimadonna67 said...

Through the past 20 years, I've had intermittent dreams now and then about an ex from high school--the one I thought I was going to marry. His sudden break-up with me was unexpected and left me off kilter for a long time, but of course I eventually moved on, except for the random dreams where he appeared. As it turns out all these years later we DID reconnect of Facebook, and I discovered he had felt guilty as an adult, looking back, on the way he had treated me. It was strangely comforting. We've remained friends since. I guess there is something to that whole idea of closure.

Nights_that_never_end said...

I love dreams, they make you think of things you wouldnt when your awake. But then you wish you could go back and see those people again and have that life again. I'm only 21 and wish I could go back to the days I was 10-18

Phoenix said...

dreams are a strange phenomena.. have you read freud? he has some very interesting explanations.. (though I do not agree with all of it)..
I found your blog very interesting, and am starting to follow it.

Edi Retnati said...

love is blind...... isn't that right?

H said...

I like your blog. Found it recently "through blogs of note", I have to say, but it deserves the praise.

This reminds me of a dream I once had. It's a common dream I guess: the dream of the perfect significant other. I remember it lasted for a very long time, like years went by while I slept. I met her and we dated and we hung out together and we finally sort of lived together.
Apart from a few key elements that I could see and memorize, I could not really describe her when I woke up.

But I felt so damn good after that dream. A bit sad too, though. Like you just saw something you'll never be able to see and touch again.
Then I stopped thinking about it (I don't dream much or at least I don't remember much when I woke up, and I don't give much importance to dreams. Or try not to).


The thing is, years later I met that girl, completely out of the blue. She was not like the girl of my dreams. She was different in so many different ways, actually. But still, the longer we stayed together, the more stuff I noticed that were strangely exactly like in the dream.

Still with her now, after a few years.


Life and dreams are pretty funny things, uh?

H said...

(I also dream about my former maths teacher or have dreams of being in an examination room again with my classmates, like when I was in high-school. I kinda have to admit it probably traumatized me more than I care to usually confess, apparently :) )

devi said...

dreams and all of us know... if u had dreamt with pure heart & true love it would be for you... so dont u worry that guy would be urs soon

Paperface said...

I think its so baffling that this happens to us. There are people that cross our path and for some reason continue to haunt us for a long long time after they leave. Careful not to live too much in your memories.

Carlos said...

I really enyoy reading your blog. All entries are interesting.

I once had a dream about an old girlfriend i had in high school. Was a very nice dream, but nothing happens after that. So don't worry, probably it mean nothing bad going to happen.

Rob Broadwell said...

very strange how dreams can come from so far in our subconscious...

sai prashanthi.r said...

hello... nice blog... it happens 2 me sometimes... so i completely understand hw u wud hav felt!!!

mrmcarter said...

Hi, name's Matt. Your blog is exciting; thank you for sharing. I actually grew up very near 29 Palms, if it's in California. I assume it is, as he was a marine, and there is a HUGE base there.

Overall, it's an interesting town in the middle of nowhere. If he's doing law enforcement, he's probably responding mostly to drunken military brawls.