Wednesday, December 02, 2009

work vent

~i've been quite frustrated with my work situation for a while now and the frustration is finally starting to bubble over.

~not only am I grossly underutilized; when I am given something to do, I am talked to as if I were born yesterday. I am constantly made to feel stupid...or that my supervisor thinks I am stupid.

~feelings of being stupid then get over-analyzed and I feel like she doesn't want me here but there's really nothing she can do about it. i don't know why she would feel this way as i've always done what has been asked of me...but still.

~last week she finally admitted to me that she SUCKS at delegating (alternatively worded of course). while she has TWO to-do lists on her desk, I am bored out of my mind. a person can only read so many blogs, write so many blog posts and surf Etsy for so long. i'm sick of it all.

~a few months ago i felt that my supervisor and I had really connected, but that is no longer the case. there haven't been any "issues" or anything, it's just that she's well, weird. she is very hard to figure out. one minute she's nice, the next minute she is over-the-top business-like as if we have just met. i don't get it. what's the deal?

~now that i'm STUCK here for (one semester) longer than anticipated, I'm miserable just thinking about it. i don't feel like I really fit in here. in my defense, there are TWO other GAs who have expressed the same feelings, so I KNOW it's not me.

~i don't want to sound ungrateful or anything. i'm lucky to have this position and there are excellent perks to the job...i.e. free tuition & health insurance, but is it so much to ask for the environment to be at least a little bit friendly??

6 comments:

Travel & Dive Girl said...

That sucks! I know how it feels to be talked down to, underutilized and bored to tears.

It also sucks when there is no "fun" and friendliness in a workplace. Where I work now is like that - no one laughs, no one has a personality either though so I guess the two go hand in hand.

K13 said...

I hear ya!

And after a fairly cold purely business-like interaction with the supervisor, she comes by to say "are you going to the holiday luncheon?"

Nope. Not going. Losing weight is more important to me. Thanks anyway.

I am a fan of consistency...in all areas, but personality is a good place to be consistent...no bi-polar tendencies please! Geesh!!

Amy said...

You always think you want a job where you don't have lots to do, until you spend hours surfing the internet. You're right, there's only so much you can do of that until you are bored to death.

And my supervisor is/was bad with the delegation. She say she had TONS of estate plans for me to draft, and that she'd come talk to me about them, and two weeks later she'd given me none of them. Then when she finally did. . .yeah, they took about two days to complete, and that was only because I worked slow (which is still fast!) to make the work last. Sigh. It totally sucks.

Rachel said...

I'm so glad that you vented about work today... cause i'm feeling it too. PHEW!

Beth said...

Yuck! On the bright side, it will make you appreciate when you get a job in a different and better place soon.

Do you get some time off at Christmas?

Eyegirl said...

I think there's something in the water. It seems like this has been a very common theme recently. Hang in there. I hope it gets better for you.