I know this should be one of the happiest times of my life.
But it's not.
I know I probably shouldn't post that here.
But I figure most of you know I'm not the happiest or most positive person in the world (nor do I even come close).
My life has gotten ridiculously complicated in the past year, not just due to being PG. Many other reasons...
At times I just get really frustrated w/the complicated 'stuff' and huge feelings of regret overcome me. One of those times is NOW. This is not the life I have been working so hard to create for myself over all these years.
It also makes me feel better to post my 'bitchfest' here.
I also have a private Typepad account where I post more detailed rants (to help me maintain some level of sanity).
I'm stuck in one of my "wish I had/hadn't made that decision(s)" modes right now.
Life just really sucks sometimes...and one of those times for me is NOW.