Saturday, May 17, 2008

~the end~

~yesterday was my last day at work. It was a VERY rough day. I didn't think I would break down but oh boy did I ever!! It was not good. I did manage to hold it together for lunch when they took me out for pizza though.

~today was the company picnic. they invited me and I felt sort of obligated to go, although not so excited to go. I just got back and try as I might to not feel crummy, I cannot help it. I detected very distant and cold behavior from the lady I work with on-site and she had always been supernice to me etc. but not yesterday or today. I'm not sure what changed.

~when I left she said 'i hope everything works out ok' which was strange because normally she would say 'i hope something comes up here so you can come back' - because she knows that is what I want and she has told me that is what she wants too.

~now i'm confused. I'm just going to have to put it out of my mind...besides I'm sure it'll be like "out of sight, out of mind" and in time everyone there will just forget about me anyway.

~at this point I feel like the whole freakin' world is against me. it seems that not even one person is 'on my side' in this never ending struggle that is my life.

~it sucks.


Mary said...

I'm sorry it was so rough for you. when do you start @ the hospital? I'm hoping there's all kinds of good stuff waiting for you there!!!

Nichole M said...

That *is* weird about that lady. Hmmm... You're right about putting it out of your mind. You've made your wishes known and now the ball is in their court. Best not worry about it; you've got enough going on.

I'm sorry you're feeling like everything is so difficult. It won't always be like this. I know that's not helpful for the moment, though. :-(


em said...

Sorry it was a rough day. :(

Try to enjoy your Sunday.

~**Dawn**~ said...

I know it doesn't really help the situation, but *I* am on your side. (((HUGS)))