Sunday, April 12, 2009

~random thoughts~

Just some random thoughts...

~sometimes I don't feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be. You know like that phrase goes "May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be" I'm having a hard time with that whole trust part because I just don't feel right.

~I got a pedicure last Thursday for the first time in many, many months. I was pretty excited. I wasn't in the car 1 minute and ruined the polish on one of my toes. Yep, because that's the kind of shit luck I have.

~I don't think my self confidence has ever been as low as it is right now, this year. Sucks feelin' like this.

~Sometimes reading blogs depresses me because other peoples lives seem to be a whole lot more fun than mine, or they at least make me wish mine was different somehow.

~I love how E can pick out his bedtime stories already. He has favorites and picks out which book(s) we will read every night. Awesome!

~Why did Graco put cupholders on the front of the strollers? None of the freakin' sippy cups we have FIT in there AND they are 'standard' sippy cups...nothing fancy. I should have bought a Chicco stroller instead!! If you KNOW of a particular type of cup that does indeed fit a Graco cupholder, please let me know, although I am not keen on having to buy ANOTHER sippy cup.

~I used to go tanning alot when I was (much) younger. Haven't gone in years now. Because I'm still carrying 15-20lbs of baby weight and ultimately don't feel so great about my appearance, I am convinced that I would feel better with some color - I always have in the past. I looked into a tanning package, knowing full well that I wouldn't be able to afford it, but anyway I would love to get the spray tan package. It's $48.88/month for 4 sprays, they last about 7 days and you can also utilize two of the different tanning beds they have there as well. Like I said, I can't afford it, so I won't be tan and I'll still feel like crap about myself and my (fat) appearance.

~Speaking of appearance and being fat. I SO BADLY want to do Operation Boot Camp. One month of intensive work outs & training - how awesome! Two reasons I can't do it (at least right now). (1) It's $325.00 for one month, (2) It's @ 6am everyday and I don't have anyone to watch E @ that time in the morning since the hubs leaves for work around 6:30am. So bummed!

~And if you need some more blogs to read, here are some great ones that I HIGHLY recommend: Chele, Dawn, KekeLynn, and Mrs Newlywed.



Gaston Studio said...

Sorry you're not feeling yourself of late. Maybe you should get checked out by your doc. I hate it when someone says, "oh, pull yourself up by your boot straps," especially if there's something physiologically wrong. Look into it... and then feel better.

Tisha Doyle said...

My life probably sucks more than yours right now, if that makes you feel better! I'm 37, about 50 pounds overweight, my husband walked out on me 3 months ago, I have been a stay at home mom for 11 years, and now need to go back to work with no idea of what I want to do. Did that help?
Hope you feel better soon!

Diana said...

I can tell you from experience that things do get way better with age. I know it seems like a hard thing to do but try to lighten up a bit on yourself,and always try to focus on what you have today instead of what you'd like to have today. You'll get in a way happier place.

Moira said...

I really just started my blog recently and I've been going through the whole starting to figure out what to put in my blog and finding something to write about evey day thing.

I've been reading your blog since I've started mine and I think that I think your life looks like you have a lot of exciting things going on. You just have to remember that a blog is such a tiny snap shot of someone's life.

Anyway, I guess the point is I think your blog life looks as interesting to me as these other people's lives look to you.

I really feel like I will never think I'm thin enough or pretty enough. I've realized that there will always seem to be a time when I could be happier in the future, but why not just be happy and enjoy my life today?

KekeLynn said...

I can definately relate to your first thought. I know I'm not where I belong. At first it felt right when I moved here, but it was just the newness and now I know this is not where I'm supposed to be.

Neurotic Atty said...

You know, I think we all feel like. I read lots of other blogs (including yours) and find my life pales in comparison--career-wise, love-wise, socially, in all manners. It's so true that the grass is always greener...

manny said...

your life and random thoughts sound exactly like mine, minus the kid.
but i have been feeling better as of late, now that the stress of school has finished, so hang in there!
-my name is amanda.

ps-do you mind that i'm a follower?

Julie said...

I just started tanning again because it always makes me feel better! I don't know if you have Darque Tan in your area, but it's only $18.88 per month! Cheer up!

msprimadonna67 said...

I know what you mean about reading other people's blogs...there's a lot more interesting things going on in people's lives that what I write about on my own blog. It can be a little daunting at times. I really enjoy your blog--a real person with a real life, making her way through her days just like the rest of us:)

NC Special said...

Honestly, sometimes you don't have it as bad as you think at all. At least you got your life going on.. I feel like I am stuck in a rut where people keep saying "you'll figure it out".

Hagan Wagon said...

I have a Graco- 9oz Playtex sippy cups fit in the front- Also the 9oz munchkin sippy cups, but they tend to be leaky. The playtex ones are great because replacement valves are easy to find and my cups have lasted 3 years and 2 kids. Hope today is a better day!